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restarted my keyboard lessons today..and man i sure had a hard time trying to catch up..hadn't been exactly playing with my keyboard since my lessons ended in june..only occasionally trying to play the True Tears piece that i got online..the leap from the 2nd phase to the 3rd phase is indeed hugeeeeee..my fingers and forearms are so damn sore from practice..zzz..

met up with some of my ex-army colleagues for dinner after that..then went to this place to chill after dinner..quite cool..there's no cover charge or anything..we just ordered drinks and could sit around and sing the karaoke if we wanted..quite a nice place to chill actually..tho' the drinks were a bit expensive..but i quite like the white wine..

during our stay there..there was a time when a couple was dueting this song..brought back some nice memories..i remembered clearly..MANY YEARS AGO..i had a chalet after collection of o-level results..then on the last day i left early in the morning as i had to attend a student council investiture..after which i joined back my friends at a ktv..over there when i arrived i actually sat beside her..then there was this singing of a duet song..i actually wanted to sing with her..but sigh..don't know how come the other girl picked up the mic..nevertheless i just continued with the song..after that she picked up the mic and started singing..and i still do remember her actually leaning her back towards me..like using me as a backrest..i really didn't mind..but damn..why couldn't i see how things were then..

and typing that part of the post just triggered a series of other scenes..the first dance i had with her during d&d; the sunrise that we were supposed to watch but ended up waiting at the wrong spot; the trip to supper together although she wasn't feeling well; the scarf that was put around my neck to console me when i was damn furious; the dentist trips whereby she would wait patiently outside for me as she's scared of dentists; the 1st movie we watched together where i think she was very bored but accompanied me so that i could see elva; the calls i get on my mobile during midnights as she was afraid to walk back home alone; the personality tests that we would do together at times; the horoscopes that she would read to me from magazines; the races we had done online to see who could do ten year series faster; the gossips she would tell me about her friends; the little cute picture sms'es that i would receive randomly from her..which there was one i particularly liked it a lot..but i lost it during a phone transition..and she kept it and sent it back to me on my 16th birthday; the strawberry lollipop that she bought for me when i was feeling down; the channel that we created..which she suggested it to be named after a movie that was airing on tv that weekend; the private messages i would receive from her when i suddenly became quiet in our channel; the rodent-ish nicknames we gave each other after one of her friends made fun of her and i had to stand up for her; the x'mas cards that she pretended to not include me in her mailing lists; the little jigsaw handphone strap that she went through quite some trouble getting; the photos whereby she was supposed to develop extras for the class..but ended up only helping me develop an extra set; the time i had to beg for the polaroid camera from another classmate so that i could take a shot with her at the last official day of school; the spectacle which i fixed for her when someone stepped on it; the nights whereby we exchanged sms'es till either of us fall asleep; the day she asked me to be her shifu..

so many memories..

yet..

perhaps..

i should say sorry..

i think..i really ruined something beautiful at that time..

but i don't exactly have the courage to now..

and i guess..

she has already forgotten everything..

man..i really miss her..

the her i've known since 7 years ago..

damn..why did it end up like this..