another emo post

argh just can't believe how much i was affected after typing everything out 2 days ago..

there's this saying "we are what the past has made us"..perhaps some of my peculiar habits now can be explained by that..

i can no longer get close to anyone else now..it's not a matter of feeling vulnerable or what not..but i guess..i'm just hoping for a spark to trigger off a miracle..a sharp twist in fate..

then again..miracles are called miracles because they won't happen..